Uncomfortable

I’m Feeling out of control with this self inflicted war raging inside of me

My thoughts are racing to keep in harmony with these erratic emotions

My Vision is blurry. I’m having trouble determining the difference between true or false.

Is it real or is my mind playing tricks on me?

I’m confused about which way to go

Right or Left

Up or Down

My GPS reads “Signal Lost”

I’m pleading with myself

Which way should I go?

I’m at a crossroad

Trying to articulate my thoughts but I’m blinded by a cloud of confusion

My gut is applying pressure to ACT

My heart is screaming HURT

My ears are listening to a faceless voice whispering “STAND STILL”

I’m FROZEN in place

But to those around me I’m constantly in motion

I’m A living facade

I’m a living mannequin

Living in a comfortable state of being uncomfortable

So Desperately needing a change

Yet paralyzed and unable to make any changes

I’m Robotic

Programmed to fit in with the socially accepted norms

Only I’m not normal

I’m invisibly lonely in a circle of people

I am living comfortable in a state of being uncomfortable