I keep being drawn back to the last time we spoke.
I’m stuck in this trance standing beside your bed hoping for this miraculous miracle to take place.
Yet your body has been invaded by this uninvited guest.
A Parasite!
Sucking every breath you breathe and drowning you in your own fluids.
How was this your destiny?
How can there not be cure?
Why my mom?
Why are you leaving so soon?
You were not only my mom but a mom too countless others, as well as auntie, godmother and friend.
I still hear your weaken voice as cancer had declared war on you.
You fought a good fight and refused to spend your time drowning in would’ve, could’ve and why me”
I’m trying so hard to hold on to your memory.
OH NO! FLATLINE!
Your memory is the oxygen to my lungs.
I’ve been on life support since you transitioned to other side.
I’m longing for one moment with you.
I miss you 💔
Vision Fyah 
Pushing the pain below the surface so no one can see it is exhausting. It’s OK to lose your composure, to have an outburst of emotion in public or privately at home or to completely fall apart. We take a lot of strength from our parents, so when you lose one of them, it’s beyond difficult.
You have shared your mom’s story with me and she was an incredible person. She was your very best friend. Remember to give yourself some grace. She would be very proud of you and your baby girl 🕊Thank you for sharing this piece.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. Grief comes in waves it’s bee 23 years since my mom passed and there are days it feels as if it just happened.
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OMG, this is exactly how I feel about my mom too. It will be 5 years in a few weeks and it still seems like yesterday. I tell everyone to cherish their mom each and everyday. Awesome job as usual!!! 💗💗
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Oftentimes, we get caught up in our emotions and forget to cherish the moments. My mom was truly my best friend . Thank you so much.
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The loss of a mom is something that no one ever really gets over no matter the time past. She would be so proud of you, the kids and grands. You realizing your passion of writing is a wonderful way to honor your mom. Keep pushing sis!!!!!!
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Thank you! This piece was so important for me to write because I’m seeing so many close to me going through the loss of a parent and struggling with how to process the grief. I use my writing and I will cry from time to time. Thank you big bro ❤️
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Those words give expression to the depth of witnessing the life of your mother, my true friend and sister in love. The inner strength and untold love that I witnessed each day as she grew weaker, yet striving to hold on for you 💔. She’s waiting for us. We shall see her again in Glory! Hallelujah!
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I wrote this because mom has been heavy on my mind lately. Whenever I’m dealing with life issues and questioning my path I’m reminded of her strength. I thank you for being there for her as she took the cancer journey. I love you too life ❤️
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I love it and I share your pain. The parasite has hit our family more than once. I feel there is a cure out there but I believe if they allow it. No money will be made. Love it and I love you.
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I know we speak often about what she endured during her journey then to see her sister go through the same was devastating. Cousin, I believe everything happens for a reason and we must continue to do our best to take care of ourselves. ❤️
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As one who has lost her mother, the pain is so relatable. We have to keep moving forward, sharing our thoughts and memories of them so others will know how wonderful they were. ❤️you sissy
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So true sissy, we definitely have to keep moving forward. Our mothers equipped us keep moving. I love you ❤️😘
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Oh my goodness! This one definitely tugged on my heart strings. I could literally feel the emotion as I quietly read the post. While I don’t know the pain of losing my mother, I do know the pain of losing my father. My dad always called me his lucky number 7, and when he transitioned- I felt like my luck ran out..but it was the total opposite. Too this day, I can feel my dad’s presence and the covered blessings he constantly keeps over me. The war he fought was cancer, just like your mom. Losing a parent is a void we will never be able to fill. It is with the Grace and Glory of God, that he keeps us in our right mind.
Excellent writing, Z!💛🖤❤️
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There’s no words. March 25th will be two months since my mom passed and my heart aches everyday. Well written, love them all.
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I understand. As the days go by some days will be easier than others but always keep your memories close. ❤️
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Wow, this is so deep, poignant and real. Thanks for sharing your innermost thoughts and feelings. I can only imagine what you feel, how you feel and deal with the loss of your Mom. She was a gift! Sending love and light to you.
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Awww thank you so much! It’s my healing ❤️🩹. I know she meant so much to many. I love meeting people who will often share their stories about her and it keeps me going.
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